When I was young I loved going to school a lot. I loved to study, get good grades, see my friends, and I loved my teachers. I went to college afterwards however I had to drop out. I was majoring in Biology and minoring in Psychology. At that time I thought I knew what I wanted to be. I thought it was all planned out and now I just need to follow the steps for it. Then some situations happened and I was forced to take some time off. It was only then when I dropped out I realized.. I have no idea what I want to be. 

When I was in the US I didn’t work, my parents took care of everything for us, and my dad just wanted us to focus on our studies. Which is very kind from my parents but put me in disadvantages later. When I moved to Germany I worked in more than one job. I tried out like three in a matter of a year. At the age of 22 I got my first job and it wasn’t easy for me. The first job was in a restaurant in the kitchen, then I became a waitress, after that I worked at a hotel. Now I´m working in a daycare. All of these jobs were difficult for me and I didn’t really like them. I kept looking at my watch waiting for the time to finish. Work was a horrible place that I needed to go to, to get money. That was my mindset and that was a very big mistake. I woke up in the morning, with a negative mindset everyday and that ruined so many things for me. I got angry more often, depressed, annoyed, and hopeless. I had no hope that I would find something that I love, or a job that I could do everyday. 

Now I have an idea of what I want to be, I don’t know how to get there. I know I want to be a businesswoman. What kind of businesswoman? I don’t know. But I know that if I keep searching, I will eventually find something that I love. Until then work is an opportunity. I decided to change my mindset each morning. Every morning now when I wake up I think, “This job is an opportunity to achieve my goals. I will go, make the best out of it, then come back home and forget about it.” Which was advice I got from a friend. When I realized that a job doesn’t need to be perfect but an opportunity, everything changed. Now I think, “This job is improving my german, it’s giving me experience. It will help me be able to do a side business or hustle that I love.” With changing my view I changed a part of my life. I woke up in the morning inspired.

Just from seeing the good in things, and having a plan, you can wake up happier. If you dislike your job but it has a lot of good things too, then keep it until you are able to do what you love. Don’t think you’re permanently in a place, always think it’s temporary and better is coming. Use the experiences in your life as lessons. Everyday wake up knowing that you will leave this day smarter. As you gather all the knowledge you need, when you’re well groomed, God will send you the perfect oppurtunity. 

You are being shaped to the best version of yourself. All the things that are going on in your life, especially the bad, they are meant to change you and make you stronger. Not everything we want we deserve at this moment. There are many things we want but yet not deserving. Because we need to keep working on ourselves, to grow, learn and master patience. The things we love don’t come easy. If something comes easy to you, then it will be taken away easily. To find your soulmate, you have to go through a lot of bad experiences. To find a career you want, you will have to go through bad experiences. That’s just the norm, you can’t expect things to come easily for you. You have to struggle, work, and believe in order to experience the best things awaiting you. 

We all need money to live, pay rents, clothing, food, vacations, and going out. Of course money is important but so are your dreams. Don’t give up dreams because of money. At least make sure that you don’t give up, don’t fall into the trap of, “I need money and a job so I can’t do what I love.”. That’s not true! You can do what you love and you will be able to decide whether it is to keep this job and save up money, or that you need to give it up to do what you love. No matter what is the way you need to take, or how long it will take,make sure that following your dream is your end goal. 

If you’re struggling to do what you love, then make a plan. Write down what it is that you need to do in order to achieve it. Estimate how long, “averagely” a person would take to achieve it. Then cut that number into half, and make a plan of how you can achieve at that time. You might not achieve by that time but you will gain the necessary experiences you need quicker. Which will then help you achieve it quicker. 

We are all lost and that’s okay, but we shouldn’t be lost forever. We shouldn’t lose hope and fall into what society wants us to do. We shouldn’t be so busy that we forget what’s important for us. No matter how many times you fall, get up. You never know when things will change for you and things can change! They can change overnight. Miracles happen all the time, we just need to believe in them. This post today was to remind you of what you love, and to advise you not to give up. Steve Jobs said a beautiful thing, he said, “The only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet keep looking. Don’t settle. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it.”

I wish that you all will find out what you love, if you found it then I wish that you will be able to achieve it. Thank you so much for reading Adyan´s Blog! Please don’t forget to like, comment, and subscribe. Have a great day.